Oh Boy

I have been planning my own wake recently, not in anticipation of my death but rather because I just enjoy planning parties. So I went around asking people what they will bring for me to my wake (read last entry), apparently some of them who are so concerned about me are upset with this question and refuse to continue the conversation. Those who did reply brought tears to my eyes with their beautiful answers.Death is a very natural thing, surprisingly, it is easier to plan for your own than to accept one of your loved one.

N told me that if he was to die before I do, can I possibly help to pass a letter to his ex-gf whom he was still very much in love. Apparently, he hurt her greatly and even till today she kind of refused to ever talk to him again. She taught me love. I thought that was beautiful and promised him and I will deliver the letter personally to her.

So that set me thinking. Do I own anyone any apologies? I probably do.

I want to say sorry to a good friend from college for hurting him. Well he was a good friend until I found out that he actually like me alot. He wrote a 5 pages letter to encourage when he knew that I was depressed. Oh boy and I was actually angry at him for liking me because hey we are supposed to be good friends. I refused to acknowledge his presence after that. I am really sorry, you were really a good friend and I miss your silly jokes and stupid actions.

I want to say sorry to my primary school class mate whom I got a crush on for treating him like dirt. Because really, at that age, verbal abuse was really the only way to get the attention of of a person of an opposite gender. Oh boy, And not to mention that my best friend then also liked him.

I want to say sorry to ex-bf for not trying hard enough even though he broke my heart. Sorry for you making you talk non-stop so that there would not be silence between, I know you tried your best to crack your little head to think of what to say.

I want to say sorry to my current date for not acknowledging my true feelings for him. How can I possibly ask you to stay in Singapore when a great path is really waiting for you in Copenhagen? Because if I were you, sorry, I will take Denmark too. AND precisely because you are so like me, you are probably going there even after I acknowledge my feelings for you.




















I am going europe in July!